Thursday, January 8, 2009

Luke, Chapter 12 part 2

I am in dire need of encouragement today. I just got out of a job interview that, in my opinion went poorly. I am not totally turned on to the job, but I need something. I have another interview this afternoon that sounds better on paper, but who knows until I get there. Both could offer, but neither could offer. Even then I feel a deep sadness in my soul. I was asked the question, "What do you want to do?" and I couldn't answer truthfully. What I want to do in this life seems impossible at the moment.

I feel so low that I can't relate to today's message on watchfulness in Luke chapter 12. I do feel like I have been waiting for a very long time for things to come my way. I know in my heart that Christ represents peace when He comes, but I haven't felt peace in ages. As a result, I was not ready today for the interview that faced me. I am lost in a dark room with no light whatsoever. There is an exit, but I don't know how large the room is or where that exit would be.

39But understand this: If the owner of the house had known at what hour the thief was coming, he would not have let his house be broken into. 40You also must be ready, because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him." – Luke 12:39-40

I am extrapolating Scripture here to fit my life, but I feel like today was an unexpected day. I didn't know about either interview until yesterday afternoon, but I still wasn't prepared despite all the time I have been waiting professionally. The first was a mystery about what the position would be and it still is. I don't know if I am a good fit, but I can certainly do the job. The question is, do I want to. I pray this second opportunity is better, will offer, and I won't have to worry about the first, but I rarely get what I want.

I know this doesn't have much to do with watchfulness right now except that I feel I know longer have the strength to be watchful. All I want to do is go home, curl up in a ball, shut off my phone, and cry.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Hey Travis, don't despair; things are tough all over and interviewing is hard, especially when it is for a job that your heart may not be into.

You may not realize it at the moment, but you have a lot going your way: you have your faith, a wonderful wife, your family, your health, your education, an abundance of talent and you have priorities! All these combined put you in great situation and though the job market is a real mess right now and quite frustrating, be confident about yourself! Your worth is extremely high and DESERVEDLY so, for you have earned it. Please remember that in the future and keep your chin up because when you exude a quiet confidence, people notice it and are drawn to it and good things then happen.

I pray that you get the job that you are passionate about and that you not limit yourself or just settle for less.